Okay

I have approximately 21 more hours until I see my best friend.
It has been 2 years since I have physically last seen her.
A glorious, beautiful reunion awaits for the both of us in the future!
We already have our week planned out for when she visits me in Florida.
Sweet Tomatoes, Man of Steel, Citrus Mall, Clearwater Beach, and nine hours of Sherlock.
And nonstop vlogging and selfies.
Once the week is over, she will be packing.
But! I shall be going with her. Same plane, same destination.
Then two more weeks of everlasting fun.
So far, I know that our plans in Texas will be: Austin, karaoke, and swimming in a spring.
And when the fun is over, it's time for me to catch a plane.
Huzzah for anxiety attacks!!

On a side note, I have a phone again (iPhone) and I have graduated high school.
Am seriously contemplating on getting a tumblr.
Not good. Because most of my posts will just be reposts from Cry's tumblr.
I also think I am on the verge of having a huge crush on a guy.
Not good. Especially not good! I've only met him once.

List of Current Dramas

I am addicted to watching korean dramas in my free time.
But since Senior year started, I didn't really have time for it, nor the motivation to start new ones.
However, I have been getting on track and started a lot of dramas.
Though I haven't finished watching some of them though.

Ones I need to finish:

I Miss You

If I remember this correctly, I have to watch Episode 6. :/
I keep telling myself I need to watch it, but I end up neglecting the show.
But my expectations are still quite high for this show. The cast seems like a good trio of actors (Park Yoo Chun, Yoon Eun Hye, Yoo Seung Ho). All of them are fairly still a noob at playing the role of an adult, because I've only seen them act out an adult role once or twice. Though it has a very serious and dark theme, it sort of draws me in.
I'm really looking forward to finishing up this drama. As well as seeing how much these three have improved over the years with my own eyes instead of reading reviews.

That Winter the Wind Blows

Only up to Episode 7 at this point. I've seen the korean movie "Love Me Not" prior to this drama so I'm curious to see the drama's adaptation. At first, I was skeptical about the lead actor (Jo In Sung) because I'm vain and didn't think he was handsome at all.
However, I have never seen any of  his works, so I've decided to give the drama a shot due to the fact that the lead actress was Song Hye Kyo, and I haven't seen her since "Worlds Within."
Turns out Jo In Sung is a wonderful actor. His expressions are very good and I can immerse myself in his acting. It really is exciting to watch these two act out a dangerous relationship.

Current one I am watching:

You're the Best, Lee Soon Shin
I'm up to date with this drama, so I guess its safe for me to say that I am really captivated by this drama. Its a family drama so everyone can enjoy it.
It starts off a little bit slow in the first two episodes, but a certain incident just really brings everything together in this story and helped me connect with Lee Soon Shin (IU/Lee Ji Eun). I really felt for her character. I recognized her needs to have a bigger role in the family, need for higher self-esteem, want of a voice, to get along with her sister, etc.
This drama does have a father/daughter moment, but its definitely focusing more on the importance of a mother/daughter relationship. It's very touching and fun to watch.
I can't say too much about the contents of this drama, because I don't want to spoil it to anyone.
But I highly recommend this show. IU may be a noob as a lead actress, but I feel like her acting is very natural and compared to the other characters, hers is much more tolerable. She has definitely improved since Dream High, especially since she's not singing herself half way through this one.

Here are the new dramas that I have started watching:

Jang Ok Jeong, Lives to Love

The love story of the famous concubine, Jang Ok Jeong/Hui Bin (Kim Tae Hee) and King Suk Jong (Yoo Ah In). This drama takes an interesting start. Jang Ok Jeong is at the top of her career as a hanbok designer and holds her own fashion show. While she is at a customer's house, she is told to take measures of the customer's blind date. The date turns out to be Suk Jong by accident, which is unknown to Ok Jeong. Then the story goes back into the past of when these two first met, and the incidents of why they have forgotten each other.
It has only been two episodes and I feel like this will be a good drama to watch. Let's just hope I will not be let down and be reminded of a past scar ("Fashion King").

Gu Family Book

...
I needed to take a deep breath. Because. This drama has already caused me to rage. In a good way though. Sort of.
If you've seen the trailer, you should know that the beginning of this drama is all about how Choi Kang Chi (Lee Seung Gi) is born, and why he is half human.
Basically.....the human woman, Yoon Seo Hwa, with the pitiful tragic story falls in love with the guardian god of the mountains, Gu Wal Ryung, without knowing his true identity. I hope its pretty obvious that this couple is going to be a tragic opening to the story.
I understand that the story needed to be rushed because it was only supposed to be a filler and an introduction, so there were a lot of flaws. But I was IN LOVE WITH THIS MAN. *Spoiler alert*

Even though he was a sweet (but old) man that turned into a fool because of his love for one woman. He risked going evil to save his woman from harm.
However, Yoon Seo Hwa, the proud human woman, flips out because she finds out her husband has lied to her about his true identity and about the death of her brother and her servant.
But Wal Ryung only lied to her that they were safe because he didn't want her to turn into a depressing freak. He loves the woman, what else could he tell her? That they died? I don't think so!
If Seo Hwa was the wife that loved him during those three months they lived together, she could have overlooked all of that and realized that everything Wal Ryung ever did was done for her.
But no. She had to betray him because the story had to move on.
What I really can't forgive is, after Seo Hwa gives birth to their son, she rejoices over the fact that her baby is a normal boy. But she puts her baby in a basket and floats him down a river like its Moses time. Just because she wants him to grow up to be a normal human and mingle.
They could have totally mingled together! Why did she have to throw away her own son? This character makes no sense to me.
BUT, that's just the way the story is written and that's the characters' descriptions.
Point is: I HATE YOON SEO HWA.
Another point is: I'm really going to like this drama, because everything that happened so far is only the beginning. Therefore, I can simmer down.

I've Been Tagged?

A fellow blogger tagged moi to do a Q&A and moi thought, "Why not?"

Here I go!

1. What is your favorite feature about yourself?
I like that I can be really patient if I want to be. There are people that can't handle waiting in line, have to go to the bathroom as soon as they get the signal, can't stand children, etc. While I can wait for months to get what I want, like a new phone.

2. Name one song and a memory attached to it.
Saltwater Room by Owl City. The song itself to me sounds very nostalgic so attaching a memory to it makes it have more meaning to me. Everytime I hear it, I get so overwhelmed it feels like I'm at the ocean or standing in a meadow.

3. Who is your role model?
My best friend. She has such a nice personality. But I'd want to be fierce like Beyonce. She seems very confident and has done a lot of good.

4. ...
I just realized there was no #4. LOL

5. Describe your style.
Haaaaaaa~ it's usually very casual when I'm outside, hoodies and sneakers and skinny jeans. At home I'm always in pajamas and such. When I dress up, it's usually very dressy and colorful with high heels. Dresses/skirts with pockets rock!! My makeup is subtle but impactful due to eyeliner.

6. Take a picture of your favorite possession.
I don't really have one but if I'd have to choose ~~~ It would be all the letters and cards I have received from people. I can't take a picture right now, but I'll update the blog later.

7. If you got a new pet today what would you name it?
Brown/gold colored: Gamja/Potato.
White: Gooreum/Cloud.
Black: Choco.

8. If you could switch lives with someone, who and why?
A celebrity. Park Shin Hye. She can act and sing. Something I would've liked to do as a career before. Besides, celebrities are the ones that truly have a behind the scenes worth watching.

9. What is your biggest regret?
Hiding my feelings.

10. What would your last words be?
I haven't really thought about it. I think it depends on who will be present. But I guess "I love you" would be fitting for almost all occasions.

I had fun doing that. I haven't done a Q&A in a long time so it was refreshing.

Everyday

There are those moments when I nonchalantly pop a hot Cheetos in my mouth while bobbing my head to music, that I think back to the times of when I used to be really close with this one person in middle school. Incredible how two completely irrelevant objects can spark a memory. I suppose my current situation of being apart from some really good friends reminded me of those days.

Human relationships. They really are fragile. Even thirty minutes of distance without means to communicate can eventually build an awkward atmosphere between two good friends. At first they start conversing because they have missed each other but eventually, the time spent apart comes and sits on them like a monster with an ugly personality.

Though I do have one friend I can talk to without worrying about the ugly monster of time, I feel like there are still many things she doesn't know about me only because she's not there to witness my surroundings or to study my face for any hints of darkness that have visited and passed in these several years she has moved away. The manner of my thoughts are this way because I don't know entirely of what goes on in her life at this moment either. I'm not there to see or hear it all. But, I am grateful to have a precious friend like her.

But, sometimes I wish I could connect easily with other people as well. Like, why can't my relationships with other people be like this one when I have several other more people I want to converse with? Why can't our friendship be as long and enduring as this one?

I keep thinking about my friend from middle school. A popular person that I became friends with by chance. A chance that came when I found out that person was leaving. We weren't even familiar with each other when we exchanged usernames. Then one conversation online led to having several conversations throughout the week.

For two years, we were able to keep this up. But the odds weren't in our favor and like most long distant friends, we fell. I can't remember who stopped first. All I remember is that up until today, I have tried several ways to keep in touch and failed, feeling betrayed. Despite everything my friend said to me, I guess I wasn't worth the distance.

To be honest, I barely remember much of anything we talked about. Did our conversations have any depth? The things we laughed about, the things we talked about in a free and energetic manner, what were they? Were they even real? Were we being unrealistic? Does my friend even miss me like I do? How much have we both changed?

How can one person disappear from my life like that?

Sometimes I'm mad, hopeful, longing, but they're all full of wishes spent on dead stars. Maybe I'm just prolonging the magic of those childish days. Because just like that ugly monster, time spent apart won't go away for us. I'm sure that even if we were miraculously brought together again, things wouldn't change. Nothing would.

Those childish, innocent days in my memories will be just that. Innocent. And those memories just won't change. They'll remain there stacked in the back making room for new ones.

Even if I doubt that they were even real.

;A;

THE TEARS MAN. ALL THESE FEELS.

All this week, I have been stuck on three sad stories. Half intentional, half unintentional.

The Titanic(1997). If for some terrible reason you don't know the names of the actors to this movie, shame on you. Go to your room. Serious face.
Though I knew it had a sad, incredibly sad, ending I still decided that I would like to watch it for the old times. Still ended up bawling my eyes out. Big surprise.
I think everyone can agree with me on which scenes it was that they felt all those feels for that movie:
From that one dramatic scene where the infamous words of "Jack I promise I won't let go," to her changing her name to Rose Dawson (very symbolic of how she is married to Jack Dawson and giving the audience a heart wrenching moment), to the scene where we realize in that one photo she went and taught herself how to ride a horse like a man (without Jack), and finally to that final scene of her dreaming, I believe, that she's back on The Titanic with Jack where she is shown in her former beauty.

Tear Level (1-5): Maybe it was due to the fact that I had already known the ending to the story but I give it a 3, which is me crying on the sofa, in the dark, for a good twenty minutes. Sniffles.

The Werewolf Boy (2012), a Korean movie I have been waiting to download since it has been released. Against my better judgement, I really wanted to watch this movie. The only good reason I had to watch this movie really was that the main protagonists were being acted out by a few of my many favorite uprising actors. Song Joong Gi (송중기) and Park Bo Young (박보영).
This story, in my opinion, had its resemblances to the Titanic. One, the grandma, that is like sixty-six years old, is reminiscing about her past with the werewolf boy. Two, the majority of the movie is placed back in the old days, though not as far back as 1912. Three, its a love story between two characters that aren't really meant to be. Four, though they aren't meant to be, they protect each other from the world. Five, the antagonist is just another rich jerk that has no love and can't stand the two lovebirds being together.
But that last reason probably applies to almost every movie out there. And if its not almost every movie, then almost every chick flick.
Someone can prove me wrong. I don't care. It was a rhetorical statement anyway. Smileyface.

Tear Level: Without a second thought, I give it a 5. Which means, I ended up crying so much for almost an hour that I ended up getting a throbbing headache. Once I'd calm down, I'd only end up crying again because everything after it would only remind me of the two lovers. I needed an ice pack for my swelling eyelids. And it's not that the movie was insanely sad either, but the fact that this movie wasn't what I had expected it to be. Just a really beautiful movie with a good story...that likes to punch your face in at the same time.
P.S. Twilight needs to get outta here.

My Sister's Keeper (2004) by Jodi Picoult, turned into a film by 2009. A film that I have not seen because I had heard it was sad. I don't know if I even want to venture into that movie since I have also heard that it was different from the book in many aspects. Which is fine with me because, usually, I prefer the book's version and that applies to any book that has been turned into a film (e.g. Bridge to Terabithia).
Originally I wouldn't have picked this book to read in my free time but it was handed to me in English as an assignment. Well, it was dreadful for me to read this at first. I was not looking forward to reading a sad ending that I knew was nearing. But then Chapter 1 ends with the daughter suing her parents for medical emancipation. ..A cliffhanger if I didn't know one. So here I am, finished with the book in less than two days when only supposed to go up to page seventy-two (It's a little over four hundred). Should I say 'oops' or should I say 'oops'?
Anyway, I enjoyed reading the words off of the pages. It was different from all the romances I have been reading and a good change for me. I'd recommend it. It has enough of the different characters' perspectives per chapter for anyone to get into.

Tear Level: I'd give it a 2. The tears required more than just two brushes of my shirt sleeve. The story had a twist that I just did not see coming. An ending that made me take in my breath just a little. Still good though. The story and characters had a lot of food for thought quotes which allowed me to think differently and conjure up questions like,"What would it be like to fall in love with someone that was dying before you met them? Could you still fall in love with them? What if I was in her shoes? Could I challenge myself to carry out a task that would be fatal? What do you choose, moral or law, when you're a lawyer?"

Well, that's all I wanted to share for today.

Have a swiss roll. The chocolate kind.